The baddest dream

Here we are again, squeezing through my tight schedule just to write something down. 

People say it's a bad thing to talk about your bad dream.

Now, I'm sure everyone had this sad dream, that when you wake up, you literally, I mean literally cry. I had this dream a few days ago, and man, was I not able to forget about it. This thought in my head-

What if it will really happen??

Pretty much breaks me and I started crying again. Whada crybaby!

It is 2014...

This blog came back to me in form of spams. Who keeps sending me spam comments, well u guys sucks. Yet I take a look at this old rusty blog I used to care. This childish, girlish ways of life is still me, I believe, but yet I grew..

1. I am now engaged to not the guy I want to murder years ago (my ex), but to my second chance of love. I believe u still owe me an official proposal! Romance actually really dies.... At least in the way I see it :p

 2. Quality Assurance/Control is where I put my passion to. Thing is, I don't really notice the subject yet here I am.

3. I used to social networking a lot, then I took a job and actually have a bed curfew. Zzzzz boring!

4. I really hope to write again... See u soon! (am talking to myself)

Bye love!

Inside

You know the feeling when you open the freezer, you look for your favourite ice cream which was ALWAYS there but then it wasn't there?

That kind of feeling, like a bit of down added with some frustration. You keep on looking but you couldn't possibly find where it is. Then you started to figure out What, Where and How would that ice cream gone.

But you can never find the reason why.. Cause you just made up the theory that someone may have eaten the ice cream or throw it away. But then.. Maybe and possibly the best reason is that you NEVER bought the ice cream in the first place. You didn't even realize that. You got that? No? Me either.

It doesn't makes sense.

I started to miss the little things..

1. Writing. Telling. Sharing. This is a start I think.
2. Forgiving.. - The hardest thing to do.
3. Giving. I accept too much I forgot to give, to appreciate..
4. Grateful. I took many step forwards, I didn't thank anyone on my way..
5. Believing.. I should have never stop believing in myself, in you, you and you..
6. Trust. I put trust in others, but not in myself.

You see why I didn't realize that I didn't bought the ice cream? I was being selfish, I forgot.

You can never blame others for your action, and neither can I.

The thing is, we can be such a bitch to ourselves. A bitch is a bitch, always so freakin' insane in a way, but a human in nature.

Blahblahbla.. I'm talking crap. This is all for November post I guess? Byezz

August

Dear August,

                    Do you remember what happened to July? Do tell me. Hope to hear from you soon.





Sincerely,
   Anis

a bit of Hatyai

I was in Hatyai on 3rd to 4th of June, during the weekend. Just a one night stay but YEAH it was fun! Say no more..

The border was packed, we had to queue at least an hour. Lucky enough I could use a border pass instead of passport. Bertuah beb jadi orang Kedah! Please orang Kuantan jangan jeles hahaha ^,^

And here is the floating market, a very good place to try out yummy foods. Takyah risau nak dapat makanan Halal kat sini, berlambak! Lagi murah cari makan kat sini daripada pegi makan kedai. Mahal and maybe you can get cheated -.-' true story.

Don't ask why so few pictures taken. Wargh! Due to technical problem, kamera tadak bateri la, cas tak masuk laaaaa.. Aih. So most memories are stuck right here in my brain, for a few months.. Tahun depan sure lupa.

Thanks to my parents for taking me there. xoxo

I've been missing writing here. Very much. :'3

Five

dah lama aku tak merepek kat sini. aku pon tak sure aku nak tulis apa. it used to be a place where i can just say anything i want, without anyone telling me it is wrong, or cool, or boring. now, i must say, sebelum nak cakap pape, kena pikir orang lain dulu. kang terasa hati, tersalah maksud, susah. susahkan diri. aku pon rasa nak quit terus blog ni macam HEROICzero, kurang menulis, dan lebih membaca. tapi aku tak rajin nak baca ponnn..

dah la, aku malas. aku ada banyak benda nak bercerita tapi takkan sesuai pon kat sini kan.

aku rasa pelik.

Excuse You.

excuse me. i don't make excuses. and still, things are much more complicated. and and i don't feel anything. don't ask me if i care, because if i didn't, things would turn out otherwise.

read between my lines then you'll understand. i'm not making this up, you did.

Hahaha!

Aku ni kadang-kadang jenis tak kisah. Bila aku tak kisah aku buat-buat tak tahu ja. Yalah, i don't care kan, buat apa nak buat-buat tahu.

Yalah, kalau kau orang boleh cakap kat aku macam-macam, aku berkepit lah sana sini, tak kira masa. Sebab awek kau pon tak betul buatpa nak berkepit. Aku sengih ja, sebab aku tak kisah pon. Hahaha!

Yalah, kalau pakwe kau pon tak terjaga, sana sini buat hal, kau kata kat aku. Aku sengih ja, sebab aku tak kisah pon. Hahaha!

Yalah, kalau kau punya life pon sini sana serabut sebab kau punya awek/pakwe. Aku sengih ja, sebab aku tak kisah pon. Hahaha!

So, mind your own business lahh. Hahaha!

Apa kau ingat aku buat entry ni sebab aku kisah? Hahaha!

Chiow!

Four

There's still a part of me that wants to run free, unattached.




Can I still?

Twenty-Third! Yikes!

OMG!

It's your

23rd Birthday!

I still think this is the best picture that night :)
*gelap sikit sorry

I love you Sayang ♥

♥ ♥ ♥


Forgive me for this short entry.

Three Words For You

Please Go Away.

I don't need you.
I am stronger without you.



*Christina Aguilera - Fighter


Classic!




Focus focus
Final Examination is coming T__T


08/03/11 - Food Service Layout and Design
10/03/11 - Business Communication
11/03/11 - Organisational Behaviour
14/03/11 - Food Chemistry and Biochemistry
15/03/11 - Law in Food Service Industry
16/03/11 - Ethics in Food Service Industry




Ayaq mata berdarah dah nak keluaq, aku harem tak study lagik!
Friends, do pray for me will ya?

Two

Aku ni memang busyyyyyyyyyyy jeeeeeeeee memanjangggggggggggggg.. Memang tak ahh nak update tiap-tiap hari -.- Aku tipu kan.

Assignments.
Presentations.
Lab Reports.

T_T


Dah le aku tak reti nak buat sangat. Memang tak ahh nak submit semua. Bakal ada yang aku akan skip nanti.


Next month dah Final Exam.


T__T


BUSY.

One

Sometimes I forgot what it feels like to love.

to feel hurt.

But then I remember..

and it is not a good thing to remember.

Maybe this time it would be different.

1, 2, go!

Aku rasa aku nak update hari-hari lepas ni.
Tapi menda menda bodo jela.
For starter..

Aku ada nampak orang juai natang nih kat fb rm50, tapi bukan kaler kaler macam aku google nih, Nixon Vega. COMEI! Tak boleh tahan tengok menda comei sekarang ni semua nak rembat.

Jangan membazir. Nanti ada orang marah.

:'(

Ahh come on laa!

Geram ramai tak update belog! Abeh tu aku nak baca menatang pa. Haha. Aku pon malas actually. Nope, busy. Buat assignment last minute, finally submit juga Alhamdullillah. Terima kasih kepada yang membantu menjayakan restoran pizza aku. Menggunakan Google Sketchup sangat la susah, sesiapa yang teringin nak main-main cuba la. Boleh reka-reka rumah untuk kawen nanti kan.

ni dia dining room restoran tak-berapa-grand aku

*credit to Mr. Toink Toink

sebenarnya ada TV LCD tapi tak nampak sebab aku buat pandangan atas :\

Next week dah start midsem, means no more 7-8 hours sleeping time krohh krohh (sangat tak elok berdengkur ye adik-adik). Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Mood untuk study tolong laaa mai melawat chek. Arghh!!

Till then.

xoxo,

Anis Comei 

hehe

2010. the closure, almost.

01.01.10 - could have been the most happiest day of my life. but it didn't. it sucks.

and life continues. i've learned A LOT.

throughout this whole year, yes, i did  A LOT of mistakes, shed A LOT of tears and laugh A LOT of times, and becoming much much happier currently too.

i thank you, GOD. you gave me A LOT of strengths, you gave me A LOT of good friends to be around with, A LOT of love you showered me. and you gave me someone to stay by my side =)

you see, life doesn't treat you fairly now in order to give you something better in the future instead. and it did =)

if. and if i cry again, it is because i'm very grateful. not because i'm sad, or feeling down. it is because i know, i've moved on.

01.01.11 - please give me something that i will be looking forward to for each day after.

*hoping.

oh hye.

Assalamualaikum. and a very good evening.
wow, lama sangat tak update. oke takda idea. -.-

macam Mr. Toink Toink saya :P saya pon pindah rumah sewa baru. keadaan agak serabut serabai sebab masih tiada almari. tapi keadaan masih lagi terkawal, barang barang oke tak bersepah dah susun elok elok. pfft

malas.

semester 4 pon dah bermula. 6 subjek sem nih. chuakks

ok bbye!

Kedah vs Kayhell!

ayaq

air

gila!

gilerrr..

saya

sayeee (euw)

lepas ni apa pulak?

ni la akibat apabila laki aku oghang KL.

p/s: tiap2 tahun raya wajib balik Kedah. tak kira!

Slip Away

Read a story from your sleep

You'll tell me everything I need to know

Turn in thread into a verse

We sit and watch the Fall return to earth

Quietly as autumn comes

The days are getting shorter

One by one

Waiting here for you

Spinning on a shelf

I'm wasting my time waiting for myself

Hide my hands behind my back

My fingertips, they hold a secret

I have to hold it lightly though

Be very careful not to break it

I'm holding on to something lost

I should just let go and move on

When I'm fast asleep

It flutters in my palm

And by the time I wake up it is gone

Slips away, slips away

Slips away, slips away

Slips away, slips away

Slips away, slips away

Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Whatever.

i have this sick feeling that maybe i'm not

• ready
• committed enough
• good enough
• and happy as i thought i would be

i need my space.

and i think time will help me with that.

thank you.