Twenty-Third! Yikes!

OMG!

It's your

23rd Birthday!

I still think this is the best picture that night :)
*gelap sikit sorry

I love you Sayang ♥

♥ ♥ ♥


Forgive me for this short entry.

haihh!

1. lampu tidoq dalam bilik terbakaq
2. on suis lampu kat luaq, terbakaq jugakk
3. sekali lagi lampu tidoq dalam bilik terbakaq!

melampau. aku tak semalang tu. aku on suis ja, untuk beberapa saat, then poof! takdak! sakit hati :| dah la tu, aku takot nak bagitau Abah, kang dia marahhh, wuuuu.. terpaksa la aku tidoq bergelap (takot woh!)

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bakal kembali semula ke Shah Alam malam Ahad, no no, Ahad malam. sorang2 macam selalu. takpa, saya independent! hahah

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setelah lama tak bertemu, saya dah jumpa kawan-kawan sekolah yang lama! ah ye, kabel memang tak sampai ke rumah, jadi banyak cerita aku taktau, tapi aku buat2 tau. :) i miss you guyssss!

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apa kejadah kes Sosilawati tu? tuptup masuk isu perkauman pulak kan. tapi tak bole nak salahkan Melayu jugak kalau diorang buat andaian macam tu. kalau orang Melayu bunuh orang India pon, laaaaaaagi la bising! keh keh keh

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eh. aku kurang dapat duit raya tahun ni. tapi serius tak kisah. yang aku kisah, adik aku yang form 4 tu pon tak dapat jugak! Mama bagi 5 hingget kat anak-anak sedara, adik dapat 2 hingget ja balik. hahaha! kedekut mak aii.. kesian duh.

gambar hiasan. hehehe

kan dah cakap, kurang!

will be back soon!

jaga-jaga kawan-kawan yg duk belah KL, aku nak serbu rumah ampa!

craving for ice cream mekdi lagi!

oh bye!

I wanna re-sleep.

ergh. i'm so pissed. you don't need to be in my dream wearing MY shirt, how dare you! i don't wanna dream about you, i should have dreamed about my super great boyfiee =)

yes, I Love You dearly ♥

this song is for you, Crawl by Chris Brown.

 so where do we go from here

with all this fear in our eyes?

and where can love take us now?we've been so far down, we can still touch the sky. if we crawl till we can walk againthen we'll run until we're strong enough to jumpthen we'll fly until there is no wind. why did i change the pace?hearts where never meant to racealways felt the need for space
i need one more chance we can still have it all.

thank you for staying here with me.

Kawen, yeyy \(^^)/

Mama I call.

Sembang.

Sembang.

Moreeeeee sembang..

Masuk bab perkahwinan. Ahh cam skema ejaan perkahwinan nee.

Let’s go for marriage. Or kawen.

So maktok I ada kat umah I sekarang, kat Alor Setaq nuuu.. Dah berapa minggu I tak sure. Mama I ni selalu macam pemalu sikit, oh tak, tapi sopan. Tapi I tak sangka la dia still segan ngan mentua dia. Hehe :D It turns out after 26 years of marriage, my mom still segan and malu2 lagi ngan mentua. Omigod, I was laughing!

Silence.

Oke2, hehehehe..

“Ala Mama, rilek laa. Maktok je pon”.

“Anis cakap senang la, takdak lagi. Mama macam kena control2 sikit laa”.

HAHA :DD oke gelak senyap2 dalam hati.

Mama tukaq tajuk.

“Eh Anis cena, bila nak kawen?”

“Ma, Anis nak kawen umo 24. Confirm.”

“Aihh, kata takdak calon lagi. Dengan tutttttt tu kata tak jadi dah. Ada orang baru ka?”

Oke, pandai Mama nak korek. Tak dapat laa. Ehe.

“Haa, nanti Mama tengok la. Tapi 24 taon Anis kawen. Sama macam Mama ngan Abah dulu kan. Takla awai sangat, takla lewat sangat kan.”

“Yela2, dah2 pegi la study tu. Study hard, oke Goodnight.”

“Goodnight Ma, Love You”

“Love You Too”

Diringkaskan. I nak kawen umo 24. Tak kira ngan sapa pon. Parents I dah approve. Ya, I know. Orang kalut ngan puasa I kalut nak kawen. Ah suka hati.

*I wonder what theme colour should my wedding be. wahaha~

p/s: I’m loving this month of Ramadhan, happy fasting everyone!

Love does not exist just because you can't define it?

First of all, this isn't a post to answer the above question. This is my opinion of your so-open-minded-facts that you brag about, in which I do not agree at all. I'd rather discuss face to face, but you just keep pushing with the "Oh please la Anis" thingy. Hey, tak reti bersabar ke? Kalau nak aku quote pon takes time, oke =)

I won't quote anything from your blog, I don't think I want to. Blog kau tempat kau la kan nak cakap pasal apa pon. But please, in public, in which dalam kes nihh, tutor, tak payah la nak bawa kau punya kefahaman ke sana jugak. That is the only place I can enjoy and just freely release my tension. You're not the only one studying blah blah blahh.. *tamau bebel kat kau.

I will try not to make this post too long and factual. I am not that logistic. I believe in things I cannot see, hear or touch.

This is my opinion. Of love ♥

Loving someone so deeply that it hurts when they're gone. That one person you need to talk to every day. To hold on to when you're down. To do things you can never imagine, together. To be annoyed at their silliest mistakes. To laugh at their stupid jokes. Missing them when they're not around. You see them as your world, which are nothing without them. Everything about them is love.

This is not a definition of love, this is how I say what love means to me. Even I'm not in love with anyone right now, I still believe =)

There's too many ways you can say what love is, what it means to you. But don't say it does not exist. You're fooling yourself. 

Don't say you don't believe in love? I doubt that.

I wish you have a girlfriend, for when she says she loves you, you won't try to paste your idea on her head. You would just smile and say "I love you too" like you really mean it. Because when that time comes, I wish you could.

p/s: Don't judge me just because I don't agree with you. Your ideas are not that perfect and you know it. Try to listen to others too, don't provoke. As a friend, what I'm trying to say is you do things that doesn't makes sense to you too, sometimes. Try not to be so perfect by denying everyone's thoughts on you. It is best you don't try to get on my nerves too. I don't like it much.

Once Again

I am not sure what to believe.

I was sure about one thing before.

My question goes like this:

"I wanna ask something that maybe not important to you.

Do you see me as your future wife?"

and later..

"Yes, do you?"

"I do. Please work on that future."

"Okay Anis. I will try work on that. Muah."

"Don't make me doubt it."

"Thanks Anis. I won't. TQ so much."

I still keep these texts. HAHA I know, macam romantik kan? But now it feels like I should have burn the phone along with these stupid texts. But then I would't know that I got these in my phone and I won't be able to re-told them.

I've gone missing from you for a reason. But you already doing things behind my back. I know, and you know, that I will always know. It is just a hunch most of the times, I got this sixth sense about you and the things you do. I don't know why. I wish I can throw this gift away. I don't want to know.

It hurts for knowing.

I will try my best on pretending.

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku,

Aku Memohon Pada Mu Ya Allah,

Jika Dia Jodoh Ku,

Kau Simpanlah Dia Buat Ku,

Dan Jika Dia Bukan Untuk Ku,

Kau Jodohkanlah Dia Jodoh Yang Baik-Baik.

Amin."

*tears*

Thanks..

a lot of thanks to you, yes you.. the reader.

but especially to you, yes you..

you really know how to make me feel special.

and you really showed it through your words and actions.

i am eternally grateful.

you may not know it but i am smiling and laughing so hard i think everybody can hear me =)

i want to jump off the window for the excitement that u gave me.

i want to smoke the whole package of dunhill just to breathe.

and most importantly, i want to die.

p/s: i'm trying to hide the tears, by saying thank you!

Seminggu Yg Indah

thank you Muhaimin for the wonderful week u gave me

i love u so much

walo susa cena pon aku nak lupakan min, aku cuba.

mungkin aku xkn lupa, tp at least aku xkn terseksa.

:) aku mau happy

will u let me be?