Five

dah lama aku tak merepek kat sini. aku pon tak sure aku nak tulis apa. it used to be a place where i can just say anything i want, without anyone telling me it is wrong, or cool, or boring. now, i must say, sebelum nak cakap pape, kena pikir orang lain dulu. kang terasa hati, tersalah maksud, susah. susahkan diri. aku pon rasa nak quit terus blog ni macam HEROICzero, kurang menulis, dan lebih membaca. tapi aku tak rajin nak baca ponnn..

dah la, aku malas. aku ada banyak benda nak bercerita tapi takkan sesuai pon kat sini kan.

aku rasa pelik.

Excuse You.

excuse me. i don't make excuses. and still, things are much more complicated. and and i don't feel anything. don't ask me if i care, because if i didn't, things would turn out otherwise.

read between my lines then you'll understand. i'm not making this up, you did.

Too Much!

Damn.

enough said

my life is in a complete mess!

1. money problem - ALWAYS

2. got no place to stay because my current house got problems with the bank since the original owner died. thanks to Farah, she is willing to let me stay at her apartment for a while. just enough time for me to seat for final examination. thank you so much!

3. yeup, final exam! I'm too stressed to study.

4. something.

p/s : I'm just so glad I got true friends who I can hold on to. and a very understanding boyfriend ( ye, saya dah mula mengaku awak boyfriend saya oke ). please, keep supporting me.

Once Again

I am not sure what to believe.

I was sure about one thing before.

My question goes like this:

"I wanna ask something that maybe not important to you.

Do you see me as your future wife?"

and later..

"Yes, do you?"

"I do. Please work on that future."

"Okay Anis. I will try work on that. Muah."

"Don't make me doubt it."

"Thanks Anis. I won't. TQ so much."

I still keep these texts. HAHA I know, macam romantik kan? But now it feels like I should have burn the phone along with these stupid texts. But then I would't know that I got these in my phone and I won't be able to re-told them.

I've gone missing from you for a reason. But you already doing things behind my back. I know, and you know, that I will always know. It is just a hunch most of the times, I got this sixth sense about you and the things you do. I don't know why. I wish I can throw this gift away. I don't want to know.

It hurts for knowing.

I will try my best on pretending.

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku,

Aku Memohon Pada Mu Ya Allah,

Jika Dia Jodoh Ku,

Kau Simpanlah Dia Buat Ku,

Dan Jika Dia Bukan Untuk Ku,

Kau Jodohkanlah Dia Jodoh Yang Baik-Baik.

Amin."

*tears*

invisible

i'm living in a big house. quite big.
i hate to say, but i think no one realise that i exist.
weird isn't it? but it is sooo true.

*sigh*

*sigh heavily*

i actually feel like crying right now.

ok ok kuatkan semangat.

uwaaaaaaaaaaa~

alone!!!! sunyi sangat

just wanna talk to someone, and actually talk. face-to-face.


p/s: sombong betul budak2 neh.

Unspoken

no more words to say

no more

nothing

empty

takda mood nak posting

*sigh heavily*